Thinking of my pre-menopausal body and how this has had an affect on my emotions. A sense of loss, sadness, change, fear of the future and how to fill my time as the children grow more independent. Wanting to hold on, to push back time, to cling. Clingy. Vulnerable.
Embodied memories. Of being a mother and of being mothered. My wonky womb and its fibroids. Nostalgia for time past, children growing up…body ageing. Contemplating my own mothers mortality.